I want to sing a verse, or something lower [in pitch] because I like to sing low as well. I think it keeps it more exciting for us and the fans. Asked if they ever feel underestimated, she replied: "Exactly. Because of that possibility, Perrie's Insta has been filled with abusive messages and snake emojis. But one thing that Perrie does have on her side is the seriously loyal and passionate Little Mix fans. They were quick to jump to the defence of their idol and hit back at all the hate.
From people saying that Alex can do what he wants to others wondering exactly whyt people felt the need to say and write horrible things about Perrie on her Instagram when it's nothing to do with her, it all got pretty confusing.
The minute I got up it was the first thing I did. I was trying to mentally prepare myself for what was to come, and get used to what people were saying about me.
She became terrified of going out, and her absences were noted by the press. I felt everybody hated me. Magazines often featured her, and there were only two topics — she was gaining weight or losing weight. The more she read about herself, the more she went on extreme diets.
It became a vicious circle of self-loathing. And then I remember, getting to my skinniest at one point, I went on the Daily Mail website, which I was obsessed with, and there was a pap picture of me and the headline was about me losing weight. Did the girls tell her the same thing? At this point, Nelson had already been criticised for losing too much weight. Less Little Mix. More Pick n Mix. I went into a really dark place and did what I did. Her mother was devastated. Mum wanted me to come out of the group.
My mum, still to this day, would rather me go back to being a barmaid than doing this. Her brother, a property developer, said she should stick it out and things would get better. For a while things did improve. She deleted her Twitter account — for Nelson, the most aggressive of social media platforms. Meanwhile, Little Mix continued to enjoy great success in the singles and albums charts.
But in a spat between their management company, Modest! Nelson says Little Mix were the collateral damage. It was to do with other people that worked for us. Nelson thinks the move to RCA was disastrous. When Little Mix started out, and for a long time, we were very authentic. We were given songs and I hated them. Then came the pandemic and lockdown, which proved life-changing. I was isolating with my best friend, and we just pissed around and laughed every day.
I got in such a state about having to lose weight in two weeks and wear a bikini. I went back to work and was really down about myself.
In the end, she wore a corset while the others displayed their midriffs. Nelson was often dressed differently from the others in videos. For example, while they wore white, she would often wear black. It got to the point where I thought, this is too much — I need to come out of this now.
Nelson has been calm, but starts to cry. She has to look after herself. What added to the hurt, she says, is that there were people who made it clear they were glad to see the back of her.
There was an energy when I walked into a room. I ask whether her unhappiness has made it tough for the girls over the years. Now Little Mix is a trio, two of whom are pregnant. Does she think the group will stay together? I still love them to pieces.
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